Monday, December 30, 2019

Week 8: "Let me be a part of the narritive."

Elder Groll and Elder Monson
Mosiah 27:31 "Yea, every knee shall bow, and every tongue confess before him. Yea, even at the last day, when all men shall stand to be judged of him, then shall they confess that he is God; then shall they confess, who live without God in the world, that the judgment of an everlasting punishment is just upon them; and they shall quake, and tremble, and shrink beneath the glance of his all-searching eye."  

Dear humans of dimension 626,

It's been a solid week! Christmas came and went, and here I am, writing again. I don't know what else I'm supposed to say here, to be honest. It's missionary work, knocking on doors, finding people, trying to teach them. My Spanish
is coming along great. I think that, by the end of this first transfer, I'm going to be more or less fluent. I can already understand everything people say so long as they speak clearly.

I've also met a lot of insane people while here, I can't understand them in any way shape or form.

If there's one thing that I appreciate more than almost anything about the Gospel of Jesus Christ is just how inherently fair it is. Everyone receives the same opportunities, everyone receives glory proportional to how 'good' they were on Earth. And everyone- to a certain extent- knows what it means to be good, and what it means to be evil. 

It's a jungle out there. View from apartment





As it says in Moroni 7:15-16 "For behold, my brethren, it is given unto you to ajudge, that ye may know good from evil; and the way to judge is as plain, that ye may know with a perfect knowledge, as the daylight is from the dark night.  For behold, the aSpirit of Christ is given to every bman, that he may cknow good from evil; wherefore, I show unto you the way to judge; for every thing which inviteth to do good, and to persuade to believe in Christ, is sent forth by the power and gift of Christ; wherefore ye may know with a perfect knowledge it is of God."


Everyone has the ability- the agency- necessary to choose what is good and what is evil. And because of temple work, everyone has the opportunity to accept His gospel. Ultimately our future is determined by us. And the sooner we learn to accept His gospel, the better. Because someday every knee shall bow and every tongue confess the truthfulness of the Gospel. It's the same narrative for every one of God's children.

And that's one of the reasons I'm here.

There's a great line in Hamilton (well, just about every line in Hamilton is great) that says, "Let me be a part of the narrative, in the story they will write someday. Let this moment be the first chapter, where you decide to stay." Someday everyone will know the truthfulness of the Gospel, but God is ready to bless us now. So that's why I'm here, to be a part of the narrative, to give people the opportunity to stay with God.

Sorry, short letter this week. I'm tired and have to go.
Elder Brayden H. Monson
having breakfast, it's usually an egg sandwich


Elder Monsons desk

Preparation Day volleyball

amazing sunset

Tuesday, December 24, 2019

Week 6 and 7: SAND

Dear Sand Raiders of Tatooine,

“I don't like sand, it's coarse and rough and gets all over.” - Anakin Skywalker. What a wise guy. I'd be remiss if I didn't include that quote.

Helaman 5:12 And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall.

Welp... I’m in Concepcion now. So that’s cool. It's a nice place, more or less. Like Salt Lake City but... you know... interesting. I`m serving in the city, Andelién is the name of my area. My companion is Elder Groll. So that's enough of the status report stuff, I mean I don’t know. I don’t know how to write a normal letter. I mean I guess the plane ride kind of sucked, but it was overall just normal. I mean what else do people want to know-
... 
So anyways let's talk about SAND. I bet all of you in Utah miss sand right now- or more specifically I bet you all miss the sun, and the beach, and all of that other warm stuff. And what do you get in return? Snow, presumably. Personally, I’d say it`s a fair trade, I’ve always liked the nasty, ear-biting, cold that comes when the world is as white as a canvas. It means I have a suitable excuse to stay inside and pretend like I have better things to do than... whatever it is that people do during the winter.

But I digress.

A particularly wise woman once told me to ``never base yourself on something that can change.” It should come as no surprise that these words- though I felt I understood them at the time- mean more to me each and every time I think of them, as most things do. Because there`s an inherent wisdom in these words that, I think, surpasses their originally intended meaning. Because there are two types of people in the world, when it comes down to it, and Jesus perfectly describes them in 3 Nephi chapter 14.

“Therefore, whoso heareth these sayings of mine and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, who built his house upon a rock
 And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not, for it was founded upon a rock.
 And every one that heareth these sayings of mine and doeth them not shall be likened unto a foolish man, who built his house upon the sand
 And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell, and great was the fall of it.”

Besides just being the inspiration for the objectively best primary song, I find these verses to be quite interesting. Because Jesus Christ has not talked about sand a lot, off the top of my head I can only think of one other time when the scriptures have: Genesis 22, when God promises Abraham that his children will number more than all the grains of sand in the sea. Genesis 22:17-18 
That in blessing I will bless thee, and in multiplying I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is upon the sea shore; and thy seed shall possess the gate of his enemies; And in thy seed shall all the nations of the earth be blessed; because thou hast obeyed my voice.”

I feel like that lends a new context to Jesus` parable. Because so many of us let others define who we are, by their philosophies and labels. But every time you step foot into that sand, you leave a mark. Sand changes, it shifts with the tides, it breaks and clumps together, and is never quite sure what- or, rather, whom- it wants to be, let alone what it's doing here. All it knows are the things of sand, the things that are familiar to is. It's not an evil thing, not really. It's not even really a thing, but rather many things. Grains, all acting separately against each other for their own goals, goals which will inevitably fall flat when next the waves of affliction come crashing down. We, humans on an Earth plagued by justice and discrimination and hate, an Earth where ignorance is preferable to scientific and religious fact, an Earth that our bodies will decompose into someday. Because we're just grains of sand on the universe`s beach, we`re visitors, we don`t know what it is we`re doing here. And, though we are together, we`re alone.

But we weren't always that way. I don't know where or when, but at some point, we all must have been stone, or part of a stone. Unified and unchanging. Because sand is just stone, shredded and destroyed by years of unbearable weather and unceasing storms. For though stone doesn't change, it can, will, shrink each time one of us decides that we can`t hold on anymore.

I`ve seen a lot of sand here in Chile. Not literal sand, my area is in the city. But something worth far more- infinitely more- than something so trivial as a beach of sand. Human beings. People. Children of God. The Seed of Abraham. And each and every one of them is confused, and afraid, and lost, and searching for some meaning in their lives. Whether or not they`ll admit it.

Whether it be the two woman who slowly closed the door because they were too afraid to talk to us Devil worshipers because of something her Pastor said, more afraid of us than- I imagine- the Devil himself. The man who was convinced that `God` was just an alien and that the angel Moroni who appeared to Joseph Smith was an extraterrestrial, because he couldn't comprehend a God who would let his children suffer, so he turned to the next best thing. The family who gave us tamales because 130 was just too much for them to eat themselves. Every single person who has given us water when we've asked. Ruben, who accepted our baptismal invitation with all the hesitation of a child who knows how hot the stove can be- afraid that this might not be right for him.

They`re children of God, all of them.

But they, like all of us to some extent, have built themselves on the sand and there they wish to stay for they know not of the great stone island that lays beyond the sea, nor of goals greater than themselves. All they know is that here they are safe- until the next storm comes, anyways. And that's why I'm here, in Chile because these people need help. They need someone to take them to the island and begin the long, pressure intensive process, of smelting themselves back into the stone. They need help, to being that eternal journey. And I know that it`s not easy for them. But once we`re set I know that there we will stay, unified in our love for God and our desire to learn, forever.

My whole life I`ve been defined by things that, while good, are changeable. People tell me I`m intelligent, but here in Chile I`m not, not when everything I say comes out in broken Spanish. I`m a great writer, but here in Chile I`m not. I play video games, but on a mission, I don`t. I`ve been defined by those I`ve grown up with, but my friends aren't here anymore. And I`ve defined myself by the little games I play, the ideas I have, my hopes, my stories, more. The only game I can still play begins each time I knock on a stranger`s door and invite them to come with me into the sea, and become a fisher of men.

And it's great. It's hard, it's discouraging, but I've already seen miracles here. So many extraordinary miracles. And here I stand, on the beach, not worried for the day when the waves come because, when you're part of the rock of our salvation, you become unmovable.

-Elder Brayden H. Monson
I really like this poem and it goes with my letter this week. Enjoy.

`Paper People`
 by Harry Baker
I like people.
I’d like some paper people.
They’d be purple paper people. Maybe pop-up purple paper people.
Proper pop-up purple paper people.
“How do you prop up pop-up purple paper people?”
I hear you cry. Well I …
I’d probably prop up proper pop-up purple paper people
With a proper pop-up purple people paperclip,
But I’d pre-prepare appropriate adhesives as alternatives,
A cheeky pack of Blu Tack just in case the paper slipped.
Because I could build a pop-up metropolis.
But I wouldn’t wanna deal with all the paper people politics.
Paper politicians with their paper-thin policies,
Broken promises without appropriate apologies.
There’d be a little paper me. And a little paper you.
And we could watch paper TV and it would all be pay-per-view.
We’d see the poppy paper rappers rap about their paper package
Or watch paper people carriers get stuck in paper traffic on the A4. Paper.
There’d be a paper princess Kate but we’d all stare at paper Pippa,
And then we’d all live in fear of killer Jack the Paper-Ripper,
Because the paper propaganda propagates the people’s prejudices,
Papers printing pictures of the photogenic terrorists.
A little paper me. And a little paper you.
And in a pop-up population people’s problems pop up too.
There’d be a pompous paper parliament who remained out of touch,
And who ignored the people’s protests about all the paper cuts,
Then the peaceful paper protests would get blown to paper pieces,
By the confetti cannons manned by pre-emptive police.
And yes there’d still be paper money, so there’d still be paper greed,
And the paper piggy bankers pocketing more than they need,
Purchasing the potpourri to pepper their paper properties,
Others live in poverty and ain’t acknowledged properly.
A proper poor economy where so many are proper poor,
But while their needs are ignored the money goes to big wars.
Origami armies unfold plans for paper planes
And we remain imprisoned in our own paper chains,
But the greater shame is that it always seems to stay the same,
What changes is who’s in power choosing how to lay the blame,
They’re naming names, forgetting these are names of people,
Because in the end it all comes down to people.
I like people.
’Cause even when the situation’s dire,
It is only ever people who are able to inspire,
And on paper, it’s hard to see how we all cope.
But in the bottom of Pandora’s box there’s still hope,
And I still hope ’cause I believe in people.
People like my grandparents.
Who every single day since I was born, have taken time out of their morning to pray for me.
That’s 7892 days straight of someone checking I’m okay, and that’s amazing.
People like my aunt who puts on plays with prisoners.
People who are capable of genuine forgiveness.
People like the persecuted Palestinians.
People who go out of their way to make your life better, and expect nothing in return.
You see, people have potential to be powerful.
Just because the people in power tend to pretend to be victims
We don’t need to succumb to that system.
And a paper population is no different.
There’s a little paper me. And a little paper you.
And in a pop-up population people’s problems pop up too,
But even if the whole world fell apart then we’d still make it through.
Because we’re people.