Dear World,
1 Nephi 17:36 "Behold, the Lord hath created the
earth that it should be
inhabited; and he hath created his children that they should possess it."
bought a new hat in the "market" on pday
So there are very few things that I have more disdain for than what Isaiah 1 calls "vain obligations." The idea that everything we do is done because it's something that we have to do. The idea that we follow commandments, perform baptisms, teach lessons, help others, because it's what we have to do, rather than being something that we want to do. And so many people, oftentimes including me, live this way. Moment to moment, obeying (or not) for obedience's sake, just sort of going through the motions. Because that way of living is so fundamentally wrong and so intrinsically opposed to our progression here on this Earth.
Life is an experience. Life is a bundle of thoughts and feelings and actions and that's all it is. But every significant action we have gives us the opportunity to learn something. Life is a gift that God has given us and everything in the world was given for our sake. I'm sure that you've all heard the phrase "everything happens for a reason." To be honest I've always found that sentiment to be a little... optimistic. Because sometimes things just are. But here on a mission I'm learning something. I'm learning that, while not everything happens for some deep spiritually nourishing reason, it does all happen for a reason. Often times that reason is mundane, but it's always there. And that means that there is (almost) always something we can learn from the experiences and objects we encounter in our life.
What is life?
I'm serious here, what does it mean to be ALIVE? To be a conscious creature, self aware, reacting and acting, constantly developing into... something? I had a weird, somewhat surreal moment this week in our apartment when I looked into the mirror and saw... someone else there. Someone I didn't expect. Because when I look into the mirror it's usually because I need to see what I'm doing. When I do my hair, I look at my hair, when I put in my contacts I look at my eyes, when I peel the ever decaying skin off of my half burned nose, my nose is the sole object of my attention. But when I looked into the mirror that day, that morning when all I could feel was an incurable rush to move as quickly as my human body would allow, I paused.
And for the first time in a while- longer than I'd like to admit- I saw myself. He blinked when I blinked, moved when I moved, and was precisely as confused as I was. And I realized that I, Elder Brayden Hunter Monson, am a living being. Of flesh and bone and brain. But, most importantly, a being of thought. What we think, is who we are. Because everything we think about is what makes up who we are, for thought is the way that we experience the world. How do we know that something it hot? Because our brain tells us it is. How do we know that our friends love us? Because we think they do. There's no tangible evidence of it, we just think that they do. We think that the fire is hot because our brain has received a signal that it is. Everything we believe and perceive about the world depends on that- what we're told, the signals we receive, and the emotions we feel.
Makes sense? No? Good.
My point in this mini psychology/ philosophy lesson is this: What happens when we don't think? What happens when we go through life moment to moment, just doing what we do out of obligation? I'll tell you what happens- We die, mentally and spiritually. Because thought is the only way that we interact with the world. And without it, there's no point.
It occurs to me the point of my letter still isn't particularly clear, so I'll spell it out directly.
2 Nephi 28:21 "And others will he
pacify, and lull them away into carnal
security, that they will say: All is well in Zion; yea, Zion prospereth, all is well—and thus the
devil cheateth their souls, and leadeth them away carefully down to hell."
Sometimes we forget why we're here. But our God has put everything on this Earth for a purpose-including us. Every experience we have, we can learn from. Every day, every prayer, every sacrament meeting, every conversation. And there are so many people who don't understand that. There are so many people, here in Chile they tend to be women over 70, who have puffed themselves up in their own knowledge and, because of that, refuse to accept that there's anything they still have to learn from 'jovens,' young ones, such as us. They're the sort of people who have stopped looking for the truth. Who would rather perish in iniquity than improve their lives in the best way we know how. I can only hope that you and I understand that we were sent here to learn, now and for eternity. Because, as my dad once told me, "the closer you get to perfection, the more you realize just how far you still have to go."
So that's the point of my message this week. I'm sorry it was a bit of a mess. Be aware of why you're here, don't stop learning. And understand this: You're a person, with flesh and blood, and you're flawed, just like the rest of us. And you still have more to learn. So learn something from everyone you meet this week.
cooking meat at a members home in their indoor bbq (seriously the most happy missionary)
more meat than he has ever seen
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Who I'm thankful for this week:
Hailey Hutchings, who's headed out on a mission, and who is going to conquer Canada and do it with an unfaltering smile.
Marielle McDonald, who always makes sure I know that it's okay to fail, and it's okay to be afraid, and it's okay to struggle.
My Dad, who's the most genuine, most human person I know. And is always aware of just how far he, and I, and everyone, have to go.
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-Elder Brayden Monson